Friday, December 21, 2012

Holiday Emotions

I find the holidays really challenging.  For a long time, I believed that everyone was having a Norman Rockwell type Christmas, and I was the only one who was dealing with hard emotions.  As I get older I realize that the holidays are hard for the majority of people.  There is an idea that Christmas should be perfect.  The perfect tree, Christmas music, all the presents, and a happy family with the excitement of Christmas morning and Santa coming.  While that is the reality for some very lucky people, for many of us, the holidays are a time where it's challenging not to get discouraged.  The holidays are a time when I try my best to be thankful, but I often find myself really sad.  I think about all the things I wish I had, instead of being thankful for the things that I do have.  I wish I still had my mom and Stephanie and my grandmother and my aunts and uncles and everyone who has passed, and I wish that my personal life was in a place where I could wake up with a husband and kids, but I cannot control those things right now.  What I am thankful for is for my health, and for my family and friends and for my job which I love and while real estate can be challenging, I am so thankful it's what I do each day.  I am thankful for riding and everyone at the barn....horses are so amazing and really make you centered and humble. I am thankful for my sweet little cat, Bella...having her to go home to makes me really happy.  She is always happy to see me and never complains (as long as she has her breakfast on time ;)).  I am thankful that I have so much ahead of me. Most of all this year, the holidays remind me how thankful I am for my faith.  Without God and my belief in Him, I am not sure that I would be able to take a step back and be thankful.  

And when I get a little down, I look at this picture of Stephanie and seeing her smile when she was facing so much, just makes me feel like faith is everything.  It was Stephanie's faith that got her through the hard times, and often she got through the hardest moments while maintaining her beautiful smile.

The best way to feel good about the holidays is by doing something good for someone else, like Jesus did.  So if you're feeling a little down, go out and do something nice for someone else.

Tomorrow I'm bringing a huge basket of pet food and supplies along with some $$ over to Baypath Humane Society in Hopkinton to help our furry little friends have a happy Christmas too.

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